Congratulations to Stephenie Meyer who released The Host today.

Along with that there is now an OFFICIAL movie trailer out by Summit Entertainment. Click here.  Its short but still the excitement and goose bumps are unbearable!!!!

I have not started this book yet so please do not tell me anything. I am reading on vacation next week!

After talking to one of my best friends back home, the third wave of homesickness since Saturday began to spread over me.  You can see how I feel about this particular subject in my previous post.

I was tired of being at work so I took back some bad shirts I purchased to Target.  Obviously through red eyes and a runny nose I was totally disinterested in shopping more.  And since I have been really trying to eat less calories and work out more, I didn’t want to give into the temptation of eating something delicious to make me feel better.   I swept through Ross after that with the sickness easing up a bit and happened to walk by  Moxie Java.  I remembered I had a gift card that I hadn’t used so I thought I would check it out.  The girl actually helped me pick out something without coffee.  Like I knew what I was doing!  I wanted something cold to compliment the beautiful warm weather outside.  I chose a Vanilla Frappe with strawberry flavoring.  It was soooooo delicious!  And it DID make me feel that much better!  I am not saying that emotional eating is the cure…if for sure isn’t.  But this was a guilt free, imitation for a milkshake that didn’t cost me anything.  Thank you Moxie Java!

I think this feeling is one of the hardest we all have to face.  Its hard b/c for one, once you have it, nothing can actually make it go away completely.  You don’t think about it 98% of the time but the other 2% is miserable b/c you know there is nothing that can make you feel better.  Its no ones fault, not even your own if you choose to move away, its just something we all have to feel and understand to appreciate home and people and things that we love.

This weekend was particularly hard.  My family decided to go to the temple on the same day in the three different time zones we live in.  This was a great experience except that it made me miss them all very much, something I try to not let happen very often.  I even choked up on Sun. when bearing my testimony (I try to NEVER do that).

No one, not even your husband, can really take this feeling away from you.  Its hard too b/c I know in the past, newly married, and experiencing great homesickness, that I have actually hurt my spouse.  Being so sad that I am not around others makes him feel that I would rather be around them than him.  I can see how that can hurt someone.  So, I try to not make my sadness known in the really hard times.  Which is almost impossible for me b/c I wear all emotions on my sleeve.

Anyway, I feel so much better now, but I know that those feelings come and go powerfully.  If any of you are homesick, I empathize with you.  Lets have lunch!

No seriously, I am doing very little at work.  Even posting this makes me look bad, but my eyes won’t seem to open all the way…For some reason I am so tired. And I can’t take my mind off of our evening.  I have this to look forward too…

We are celebrating tonight!  First, with our Friends Tom and Stacey (From Ry’s work) b/c they are pregnant!  And now we are celebrating that they still have jobs! Since they work together and all.  I am really excited and looking forward to excellent food!  Oh and it is going to be 70 all weekend!

Good news!

They are basically getting rid of everyone in Ryan’s department but they are laying them off for now.  They have other jobs they are going to move them too.  So, we should be good for the next 12-15 months but I feel the need to say tentatively just b/c that is how it always feels.  Ewwww…I don’t have to take my cloths back! haha Just kidding about this.

I am really glad but Ryan sounded kind of disappointed.  In his words, “change is fun!”  I was like, yeah, but not right now.  I feel like change will be tons of fun…after I finish school and move on with my life.  I am happy with finishing here in Boise.  I wouldn’t mind going back to BYU, mostly for the name, but we have friends here and a great place to live.  I didn’t like Provo as much, even though there is an IKEA in Salt Lake now, oh and a Cafe Rio (but Bajio makes up for the loss).

I am so grateful for all of our blessings.  And I am grateful for a husband that works so hard (or suffers through a boring job) to provide for us.   Thank you for your prayers and concerns.

My family is going to the temple tomorrow.  It seems like we are all in need of something specific lately.  And even though we live in THREE different time zones, I know we are all going to feel close together.

Just for all of you who know our situation with Ry’s job today he has a meeting with HR representatives at 1 pm.  I hope we know more.  I am really  not that nervous but the idea of him getting fired is very surreal and I think I will be utterly shocked.  I have felt pretty secure for a while now and am not used to the idea of this happening.  Anyway, I know everything will be good (but I bought some shirts yesterday and I hope to keep them!)  I will HAVE to take them back for sure if the outcome is not pretty!

With all the changes possibly going on lately, I have still been feeling really good lately.  I attribute this to a few different things:

1.  I have rededicated myself to praying in the mornings.  We usually pray as a couple but I have been out of the habit of individual prayer for a while.

2.  Working out:  I don’t know if it is b/c we are going to Mexico next week but for the past 2-3 weeks I have been going to the gym consistently almost everyday.  It helps b/c I found a regimen that I really like.  Every other day is cardio and then strength training exercises.  I am seeing subtle (very subtle) changes on the scale and in the mirror.  (But how come the cellulite seems to get worse!!)  The eating habits I have been working on but they are always rough.  No matter what changes in my appearance however, the best part is the added energy I have felt.  Its been nice not to come home and watch 3 hours of TV and then feel like nothing is getting better.

3.  FLY Lady:  I stumbled upon this website on my SILs blog and I have never heard of it but already I love it.  It is all about loving yourself and making life easier on you and your family.  I have only been following it for 3 days but this is the first weekend in a while that I am not angry b/c I will spend all Saturday cleaning my house! Seriously!  When my home is dirty on the weekends it makes me beyond grouchy!  I guess b/c that is when I am there the most.  But their system on this website seems to be really great so far.  I shined my sink for the first time on Wednesday and I do love it!  It feels so sanitary.  So, GO VISIT THE SITE! Sign up for the Butterflies Beginners and start making your life happier and less cluttered.  I realize I have an advantage in that my life isn’t too crazy right now, but I am confident that by gaining these habits now will help me when kids come along.  And I am confident that even if you have 3,4, or 6 little ones, you can implement this in your home and make things a bit more simple.  I hope I stick with it and right now there is no doubt in my mind.